Monday, June 4, 2012

Finally an Update on Parenthood

    Alright everybody!! This is my first post in MONTHS! I'm so sorry. I got so side tracked with a new baby, not having internet, etc. But no more excuses. I have a computer at work I can use, so I have internet. And Holden is awesome enough to let me use the comupter! ;)
    So here we go!

   Last time I told you John and I were expecting a baby. And it was so exciting! I got humoungous thru the months

My sister had her baby two weeks late
Baby Merideth Marie

And two weeks later, it was my turn!!!
Holden Cache- December 18, 2011

Here's the dish. On Saturday, the 17th, I went to my Grandma's new condo to play games with all my sisters and Mom. It was a fun crazy night! We were laughing like crazy, yelling, talking, playing games like MacKendrick girls do! I wasn't feeling too awesome. My tummy just felt so tight and I was just achy. But my sisters said it was nothing, just Braxton Hicks. I believed them since they have experience! Later, I went to John's friends house where they were playing video games. I knew it was going to be a long night, so I settled down on the couch to fall asleep. The only problem was, I couldn't get comfortable enough to get to sleep. My back ached way too bad and I felt nauseous. So I just layed there until I finally fell asleep!
The next day we went to church. I still wasn't feeling 100% and even slept longer than usual. At church I was asked to give the closing prayer in Gospel Essentials class, and was a little hesitant to accept. Around the middle of the class I started having contractions. REALLY close together. Like, 5 minutes apart. I gave the closing prayer and told John we had to go. We went home and John turned on the football game while I sat there having crazy contractions! They were getting closer, and finally I was at just one minute apart for about a minute long. NOT FUN! I asked my sisters what to do, and they said to wait longer. But I couldn't! I called the doctor to find out her opinion and she said to come in. We threw a bunch of stuff in the car and left.
That car ride took forever!! I just wanted to tell John to drive faster. I'm sure he was nervous too! Once at the hospital the lady was asking us the regular questions and I couldn't sit there too long. She noticed I was uncomfortable and led me to the room to get checked and admitted. I was at a 4!! I got to stay. :) It was 3 PM.
The whole process wasn't terrible. They gave me meds for the pain, but it wasn't helping. Around 7 PM I just couldn't take it anymore. I wouldn't let John touch me, showers didn't help, walking was death, and every contraction induced panic that another one was coming! At that point I was at about a 7, and not progressing. So I gave in and got an epidural. It was SO hard to sit still through contractions, but I had help from the nurse and John's comforting. After the epidural I was so loopy and sleepy from the pain meds! It took maybe half an hour to be ready to push. We pushed a few times while waiting for the doctor to arrive, and in between pushes I was just so tired that I couldn't keep my eyes open! I could listen, and I laughed at what the nurse and John were talking about, but I could-not-for-the-life-of-me keep my eyes open. The doctor took forever to get there, and by the time she was there it only took 2 or 3 more pushes and Holden was born!!!
Holden was so beautiful! They handed him to me and he was sticky and gross, but I didn't care! He was here, and I was so happy and in love!! He was 7 pounds, 11 ounces. 21 and 1/4 inches long. Born at 9:56 PM on December 18, the day before our anniversary. :)
Those first few nights were tough, trying to figure out nursing and getting him to sleep. Some nurses gave good advice, some just didn't make sense! Some said use a paci, some said it's a bad idea! I finally gave in and gave him the paci because he just would not sleep!! It was a nice hospital stay. The nurses were helpful, the medicine was nice, and I loved having visitors.

Holden at home. :)

Christmas was wonderful. We had my parents over to visit, and just had a relaxing day with the 3 of us. :)
Life with Holden has been exciting, new, challenging, and life-changing! He is a complete joy to have in our home!! It definitely takes patience to be a mommy of a 5-almost-6-month-old. He has different ideas of what is supposed to be going on!! He loves kisses, peekaboo, flying, sitting on Mommy's lap, talking to Daddy, clapping, bathtime, and reading. He started sleeping through the night, and he got his first tooth to pop through! We love being parents, and wouldn't change it for the world! We love you Holden!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Our Family of Three

I went to my friend, Autumn's, house yesterday to see her beautiful new baby! She was adorable! anyway... When I went over, Autumn said how weird it is to say she has a family of three now. So she is my inspiration for the title today! :D Thanks Autumn.

So, recent testing and such have brought us to the point we are at right now. We went to an appointment to follow up on the tests to see what was going on, and the doctor suggested we have a pregnancy test. So we had the blood drawn, thinking nothing of it, but secretly crossing our fingers that it was positive. At about 4 I recieved a phone call informing me that my test was positive! I'm PREGNANT! I was really excited, but I had no idea how to respond to the test because I didn't know what was next on the agenda, so I waited quietly for the lady to continue talking. She put me on hold to schedule me for an appointment, and for what seemed like 5 minutes I cried. I was so happy! I was scheduled for an ultrasound the next day, and I was given a perscription to pick up that evening. I wasn't sure how to tell John the news, so I wrote him a card, told him I'ld be home late, and to read the card.
When I got home, John was watering the garden, not reading the card... I asked him if he read the card and he said no. Somehow I wasn't surprised... I told him to read the card. He told me to read it to him, and I didn't want to!!! Finally he figured out that I had news and asked is there something I need to tell him. I nodded my head and he just hugged me so tight! We went inside ad read the card together, signed, Mommy and Baby.
Since that day, we've been doing a lot of planning. We can't choose a name, but I don't think I can decide until after I know the sex of it... Too many options! We purchased a crib and diaper table... Oh and we started cleaning out our junk room to start the nursery.
Everything is so exciting and so new! We never know what to expect, but we're excited to see what happens!
OH! My current due date is December 28, but my doctor's thinking of having baby out before Christmas. We'll see what happens! :) Today I am 13 weeks, ALMOST in my second trimester. Everything is great, I'm feeling rather well... minus the occasional nausea, and John is ecstatic and trying to be as supportive as he can.
That is our story today, "our family of three."

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Recent Events

These past couple weeks have helped me see the important things in my life.

Who cares what things I own? As long as I have John, a house, and food to eat, nothing else really matters! I'm blessed with a wonderful family who loves me, and will help me with anything, no matter the cost.

This gospel is the only true gospel, and I'm grateful to have it. To know, without a doubt, that my Heavenly Father loves me, and that I'm His child. I am so happy to know that, no matter what, I'll have someone to talk to in times of need or dispair. I love the temple and how it brings total peace to my soul when I'm there.

I am a truly blessed woman, and I need to remember that. My life here on Earth is meant to test and strengthen me. All that I go through has a reason, and I can and will perservere.

I suppose this is my testimony, and I'm glad to share it.

thanks for reading,


Thursday, March 17, 2011


Sometimes, do you just wish you could say how you were feeling, but you didn't want to upset anyone? And keeping it in just made you more sad???
That's how I feel right now. I just want selfish things, but why can't I, just sometimes want something for myself?

Anyway, that's my sad story for the day.

But, I did make some pretty good Buffalo Wing Wraps today. Except the breading wasn't crunchy enough.. Sad face... Otherwise, it was a winner. :)
Thanks Rachael Ray. That's what I love! Rachael Ray. Her food is usually pretty good, and I LOVE her dishes and utensils.

I want all of them!!! SEE! (I especially like the casserol dishes and serving dishes..)

Anyway... That's enough of my rambling for today! Thanks for reading.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

My love today is...!

Today I love baking just because I feel like it.

It helps me think, and relax.
Today I was really upset because somebody didn't want me to work for them (at a cake place) after I was there for a couple trial days. I tell myself that it was about my work, not my person. I don't want to know I don't work satisfactory to someone's standards, but I guess it's better than they didn't like me...?
Anyway... I'm going somewhere with this!
I got finished talking to this woman who didn't like my work... and decided I really wanted to bake. I bought a couple of things and went home to bake.
After crying for a few minutes (I cry WAY too much...), I started to make a recipe I saw in my magazine. It was a delicious chocolate whoopie pie! MMM! :D Everything turned out great, and afterwords, I didn't feel like crying.

I know I always say something about John, but last night I expressed my concerns about this job, and how I knew I wasn't staying long, and you know what he told me?? He told me he was proud of me. And that I do my best, and to keep trying.
So I love John again today. :)

That is my story today! Hopefully I will be more successful in finding a job that likes me soon!

Friday, February 4, 2011

Today my love is....

My husband. I know that's a given. But today I just couldn't wait for him to come home. I start missing him at random times, on random days. Today was that day. It was about 4 o'clock, after I was done babysitting. I thought to myself, "Ooh! Only two more hours to seeing John."

Those were the slowest two hours ever.

When John finally got home I just hugged him for about ten minutes.

I love you, John.

You make me happy when I just want to cry. And when I do cry, you understand. If you don't understand, you just hold me until I'm done. I love that.

You always make me laugh.

I love to tickle you, even though you hate it. (secretly you like it...) ;)

Your eyes are beautiful.

I'm motivated by your perserverance and strength. I love our memories together. :D


This month is February. The shortest month of the year.

Yet, it's probably one of my favorites:
  • The weather is always nice... except this year, it's freakishly cold.
  • The color pink is everywhere.
  • Football season ends. :)
  • Oh ya and... It's the month of LOVE!

I've never really been able to get into Valentine's Day. I don't know why, but it's not like I HAVE to be romantic on that day. Why do we think that one day a year is meant to show our love for someone special? Why can't it be all year?


This month, in honor of Valentine's Day, I'm gonig to get on here as much as possible, and share what I'm in love with. It could be my husband, the temple, chocolate... Whatever I'm in love with that day. So... here goes! Enjoy the month. :)